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Nerves Tied into hopeless balls of yawn Within the cramped pits of my stomach And it is dancing a waltz; wild and free And it makes me laugh, but not in a good way Because all I can feel is Panic It drowns me in its power As it screams within my ears, like a wild thing Whose boundaries knew no limit And I can't breathe... Let me go.

A pencil can t  w i r  l as fast as your eye can w   a t    c  h it. As l   o   n   g as you k ee p it in control you have no fear. I watch mine r  o   l l past my cold fi  ng  er  s. T w  i  r l and t     u  m         b    l                e d  o     w        n the b r i c k walls of my mind it f a l l s and f         o         t         .     l         a         s Alice in her rabbit hole never got t      h     a    t   f  a r. Neither will what I try to write for you but if I try if I try and fail like I always do will you still read it? I'll get n      o     w    h   e  r e without my b  r e  a t  h . But I will get f a  r  

Everything was perfect... Until i realised, I was sleeping.

Fancy meeting you like this out here in this bone orchard Nary thought it would exist yet here are souls are tortured A spirit chain each link is taught Entwined remains though we forgot the battle on this very spot how oft we had lamented of the shackles that were bound and wrought Love disoriented

When the day holds no meaning, and life has no purpose. When the waves are to high and you can't seem to surface. When you're lonely and empty inside. When you feel that you should hide. Push a little harder and walk another step. You have purpose, you just haven't noticed yet.

Down my wrists, Off my hands. My liquid of life, On the ground in lands. Tears are falling, There he stands. Not a second look, Not even a demand. His eyes hollow, Hollowed by pain. So here we stay, In the pouring rain. My blood is falling, Never to be mine again. The knife is crosses, Over my soft skin. Red seeping through, The pain can begin. Left behind, Blood falls. Emptiness is here, The shadow calls. Cuts run deep, That's it, That's all.

  Great Expectations Turn up the music loud You still can't drown them out The voices of your expectations Pounding in your ears like a drum beat Rattling your head and breaking through your ribs The music shakes your chest You're trying to ignore them But the words still crackle through Like broken, splintered bones You can't drown them out You can't pound them out They'll ring in your ears until the day you die You want to scream and shout until your throat is raw Just to hear something over their voices But your voice is too quiet It can't be that loud No matter how much you shout No matter how loud you get Their voices

 Ascention There's something to live for when you're around, A light in my life that is most profound, A solid wall that blocks off the end, A protective shield where my mind can mend. It's hard to explain what you mean to me, The smile in your eyes allows me to be free, It's more than love, it's something more, It's all that stops me from locking the door. While you still stand I can live my life, With this support I can escape the knife, Move on, dream for the first time, I'm looking up. It is now that I climb.

So many words have been said So many words left to say Not enough to express your feelings Feelings so dark as the night Opening your mouth is easy Opening your heart isn't Even though the solution might be close Your eyes were shut for it. Now, your eyes are closed your mouth is closed you heart is closed Sleep well...